Oops�.I forgot something in my last entry and I�m lazy so I can�t be bothered to edit it and do the whole html thing�
So, just as an aside, people who read here, I�ve been updating like a madwoman recently, you might want to skip back a bit ;o)
Okay, so, Matt and I were in the car driving to his brother�s and a System of a down song came of the radio (Lonely Day) and Matt turned it up. I thought it sounded bad so I turned the treble down a bit and the bass up a bit�and then Matt turned the bass ALL the way up which made me laugh, which made HIM laugh so we were all happy. And, smiling, I started singing because I LOVE system and I haven�t listened to them in SO long and I just started crying�
He didn�t notice and I�m glad because I was being silly but you know what it�s like when a song describes how you feel or just hits a chord and helps you really feel your pain. There�s so many that I like at the moment because of that (Paint it Black, Creep�to name two�and yes, I do know you can count) but I want to post the lyrics to this here so I remember it because I�m crap at that at the moment. I hurt and I avoid listening to music that emphasises my hurt because I want to feel like I�m strong. Crying doesn�t make me weak�it helps me heal and I want to do it more often. I�m still jigging, but it�s to SOAD and I may have a cry too�*hugs* (I don�t make sense do I?)
Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It's a day that I can't stand
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Shouldn't exist
It's a day that I'll never miss
Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life
And if you go, I wanna go with you
And if you die, I wanna die with you
Take your hand and walk away
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Life
Such a lonely day
And its mine
It's a day that I'm glad I survived
Okay�I�m really going now�no more entries for today I promise�except this one *might* be after midnight so it�s my first of Wednesday�s�honest�
:o)
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Last Lemon Productions!
