Oh my god�how quickly can things fuck up and go wrong???
I can�t even talk about it, but last night the most horrendous thing EVER happened and I still can�t quite believe it. My life is in some kind of suspended limbo while I just wait and see what�s going to happen.
Besides this, I�ve been messing round on myspace again and now I am UTTERLY CONVINCED of one fact�
MYSPACE IS THE ROOT OF ALL FRIGGING EVIL
�I just found out that one of my friends (I�ve known her my whole life�she�s my Mom�s god-daughter) is going out with my Ex. It�s not a big deal, I was only with him for a few months (it wasn�t one of my 3-year-long epic relationships!) and I met him through her anyway�AND he told me that if it wasn�t for him meeting me and her being with someone else then they probably would have gotten it together. I should have expected it. It�s just a bit of a blow.
When I first started going out with him she told him horrible things about me � now I can see it was all jealousy�
She hasn�t really spoken to me much at all since I broke up with him (yes, that�s one of the main things I have to note; I broke it off with him so I have no right to be upset. I�m not upset. I�m just weirded out�) and now I�m wondering how long it took them to get together, and if she�s not been talking to me because she didn�t want me to know�
It�s not really any of my business is it?
I think I�m made of ice and stone. I don�t know what love is. I think I do but I don�t. Up until today I thought that I�d loved this guy, but right now I feel nothing. Maybe it�s because, like everything else that happens to me, I can�t believe it�s real? I need a healthy dose of WAKE UP BITCH!
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